Monday, 17 November 2014

Body Confidence

Before I start this post I just want to say that this is me completely just sitting down and saying what's on my mind. This is something that is very sensitive to me and I just needed to get it off of my chest. However I genuinely had to do this in a positive way because that is my mindset, I'm sharing this with you to hopefully reassure you and help you be more accepting of yourself, because I think it is so important xx

Today I want to sit down and talk about something that is very personal to me and has really become a big issue for me over the past year or so. I feel like my blog encompasses and really reflects the kinds of topics most young female bloggers talk about, with the one exception being the quite huge category of fashion. I think there might be one photo from back when I started posting last year that actually shows my whole body. However since then I have gained a lot of weight and that and the fact I don't have the most amazing dress sense has meant I've never really felt confident enough to share pictures of my entire body for any reason, as weird as that sounds. 

That and a lot of things that have occurred over the past year has led me to wanting to chat to you all a little about body confidence and my thoughts on it. Since the age of around 15 my average weight of around 8ish stone for someone of my short size has grown rapidly. It really started around the time one of my best friends took her life and the leaving of my secondary school to what would be the worst year of my life, spent at a college I hated, really learning the true extent of my personal anxieties and stress disorder. I've always been a foodie but it got to the point where I would go out at lunch and buy food with whatever money I could to comfort eat, and then when I got home once my parents went to bed that is when the raiding of my kitchen cupboards began. It even got to the point where eating 4 chocolate bars and a load of sweets at 12 at night was normal for me. 

Since getting to nearly 11 stone around Christmas, I came back from my emotional low around February which you may remember was when I pledged to go on a diet and visit the gym most days, which I managed to do till around April, and lost a few pounds until like most crash diets I ended up going back to normal. However I haven't been eating anywhere near to the extent that I was around December time, I am pleased to say. 

Having these anxieties all the time combined with emotional eating is something that is really hard to be ok with. I have this constant worrying in my head that people don't like me and stress about what people think of me all the time, yet this causes me to emotionally eat which obviously makes me bigger, which is just really illogical and frustrating for me. I personally hate it when people say "oh if you want to lose weight just eat less and exercise", you know in that tone that makes it sound like it's so easy to just do it. I mean I appreciate being given advice and encouragement but we all know how to lose weight and it's really ignorant to assume it's that easy for someone to just flick a switch and suddenly lose weight. Especially if like me it feels completely out of your control.

As frustrating as it is and I'll always wish I looked like my super skinny sister and not want to cry when trying on clothes in shops, as we all know loving and excepting yourself is so important to just be happy and live your life to the fullest. Being happy with how I look has been really hard for me in the past few years, all of a sudden I noticed guys weren't really as interested in me and things like my prom proved way too stressful than they needed to be. Trying on clothes is where it hits me hardest and seeing myself in photos, it's a shame that we automatically see the negatives of our bodies rather than the smile on our faces and the good times we were having. 

Recently I've been really trying to be more positive and live my life properly if that makes sense. I've been cooking so much and it's really made me more conscious of what I'm eating in that I'm making sure to eat more fruit and drink more water, and not in a diet sort of way where it feels forced. I still get those moments when I don't feel normal, and just to put it bluntly gross because of my weight. It's something that will always be there but I would rather be accepting of it than pretend it doesn't exist. It's weird really because I've always strived to be an understanding person and never judge people so it's strange that I judge myself so harshly all the time instead of just focusing on who I am as a person.

At the end of the day in order to accept ourselves we have to be realistic, because looks aren't important. The whole idea of beauty is so superficial and shallow, and being healthy and happy is  just so much more important. Life is far too short to feel sorry for yourself all the time, because you'll regret it, remember carpe diem! And finally always remember that no one is perfect and no one is completely happy with their appearance, that's just the way it is, even someone you may think is perfect, could be so unhappy about certain aspects of themselves.

I don't really have a conclusion to this ramble of sorts because I think body confidence and acceptance is a working progress, there's always going to be setbacks and obstacles because we all have off days. Just remember you aren't the only person who feels this way and there's more to life than looks as difficult as that may be to see sometimes. You are beautiful. Whether you are skinny or chubby or something in between, and just because you don't fit societies's mould of perfection doesn't mean you aren't perfect just as you are. So start loving yourself because there are way more interesting things about you than your looks, and we all need to start believing that and start focusing on our personalities and talents. 

In the words of the ever fabulous Ru Paul "if you can't love yourself, how the hell you gonna love somebody else? Can I get an amen up in here?" haha 

Thank you so much for reading, it means the world. Have a great day xx

Saturday, 15 November 2014

Nuxe Ultra Nourishing Lip Balm

Nuxe Ultra Nourishing Lip Balm | £9.50

Today I am reviewing a product that has been on my wishlist for so long, but for months I just could not justify spending so much on a lip balm. However once September came around I knew I needed to get something that was gonna work for my dry lips this winter, as last year they were horrendously dry and cracked to the point where I rarely bothered with lipstick. So yes once I realised M&S now stock Nuxe! I put this in my basket without a moments hesitation and I'm so glad I did.

The packaging itself is very luxurious in it's glass bottle which makes it very nice to hold being a bit weighty. I do think glass packaging gives off this more mature vibe but I love it, I wish way more products were in frosted glass to be honest and I feel a lot less anxious about throwing this into my bag. 

The formula itself is very thick and has a gritty texture which does go away after you've put it on your lips. The name is on point with this product as it really does feel super nourishing and really stays put on your lips. Since I started using this in September I haven't had dry or chapped lips once which honestly seems like a miracle looking back at last year. It also has a matte finish which I really like and the thick texture of this product means applying products over the top is easy and it still stays on my lips. 

You get 15g of product in this little pot of heaven, but trust me when I say a little goes a long way. I've had this for just over 2 months and apply it about three times a day and I've barely dug into it. The scent of this to me is orange and lemony with honey, it really reminds me of Anna's lemon drizzle cake that I made ages ago which was so good! 

So yes I love this stuff! Have you tried it?

Wednesday, 5 November 2014

Some Fireworks

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Emerald Excess

Maybelline Super Stay Gel Nail Colour In Emerald Excess | £4.49 

Today's NOTD features a polish that I was honestly so excited to try. I've wanted to try this formula for so long, because so many beauty bloggers seem to love it and say it's lasts ages, which with my 'chip a lot' nails sounds like something sent from above. So with Boot's having their legendary 3 for 2 deal on the other week I decided to pick up this super dark green shade, from what I believe is one of their new shades known as The Inks. 

I already love the shade of this and can't wait to wear it more around winter as it reminds me of holly leaves and wreaths as it is such a dark green. In terms of lasting power this stuff is darn good, 7 days may sound a bit kray but with a decent top coat it's surprisingly a pretty accurate estimate, which I couldn't be happier about. The application of this stuff is also great, it is so pigmented and has a wide brush which is such a priority for me with my unsteady hands when painting my nails. 

So yes I'm loving this polish at the moment!

What do you think to this shade?

Tuesday, 4 November 2014

Double Nyx Review

I'm back with a double review for you all today and honestly it seems like way too long since I've sat down and acted like a beauty blogger. But hey ho, at least it's given me the chance to try lots of new products that are just itching for a mention here on this little corner of the internet. Today's reviews are of two products that I bought at the end of summer in sheer excitement of finally finding a Next with a Nyx counter and what can I say, A/W products are my fave. So now I've had a chance to really have a wear of these two, here are my thoughts! 

Nyx Matte Lipstick In Alabama | £6.00

First up is this super autumnal lipstick which is my current favourite at the moment. I may have given Rimmel's 107 a very nice mention last month but honestly once I remembered I had this it's just been gathering dust in one of my drawers. In comparison to 107 this really does win in my opinion, it's more red than a berry shade which I think is more flattering on my complexion. It also doesn't have that horribly strong scent that the Kate Moss one has which is the only thing that really puts me off wearing it. 107 does last that bit longer though because it is more matte and chalky, but Alabama is a winner for me because it is just much more comfortable to wear on the lips, being a lot more buttery in comparison and the shade is a bit less scary. Ok so that turned into a bit of a battle of the autumn lipsticks but I just wanted to put the two together, as the 107 lippy is a staple product to a lot of people at this time of year, so I thought it might be interesting to compare the two.

Nyx Powder Blush In Taupe | £6.00

My second product is a blush that I have wanted for so long. Contouring is something I'll always be slightly afraid of with my face shape, but I'd seen loads of contouring posts that said Taupe was the product to get if you're pale. So yeah I went and got it and honestly, I'm a bit underwhelmed. I really like the colour as you can use it as a blush or contour and it works pretty nicely, but the lasting power is disappointing as is the pigmentation. It's a shame when this happens because so many people seem to like it, but I can't lie to you, it's just not doing anything for me.

Do you own any Nyx products? 

Monday, 3 November 2014

October Through Instagram

Being Ill | Late Night Photography | Lush Fun | Autumn Walk | How I Blog | To Paint | Playing In The Leaves | Food Shopping | Full Marks On My First Psychology Essay | NOTD | A Quick | Stop In Lancashire | Late Night Drive | Leaf Love | Walk On The Canal | Anna's Lemon Drizzle | Pumpkin!

Hey folks, long time no speak I know. I hope you all had a Happy Halloween and a great October. Mine has had it's ups and downs and college work is definitely getting on top of me, so apologies for the lack of posting. Honestly it's like not only do I not have the free time to blog at the moment, but I'm having blogger's block too :( It sucks but I'm trying my best to keep my corner of the interwebs alive as I love having it. 


Friday, 31 October 2014

Lush Autumn/Winter 2014

There are a lot of exciting beauty releases at this time of year, but my favourite of all has to be Lush's seasonal offerings. I would have liked to have hauled a bunch of Christmas bath bombs like I usually would and show you them but my parents have just had the bathroom redone and we now just have a shower, which means no more pamper sessions for me until I get my own house. I did however go into Lush with my friend today, and because I had my camera out to do some street photography one of the lovely people in Lush asked if I'd like to photograph some bath bombs and of course I said yes! She also showed me and my friend around the amazing A/W products so I thought I would share some snaps with you as there are some real gems this year, as well as plenty of old favourites!

Lush Snowman Kit | £5.00

Lush Northern Lights Bath Bomb | £3.50

This stuff really makes the most colourful bath water I've ever seen! You can also break bits off to make it last a few baths .
Lush Star Light, Star Bright Bath Melt | £3.50 

Lush Holly Golightly Bubble Bar | £4.75

I never knew that you can actually blow bubbles by rubbing the watery bubble bar mixture into your hands.

Lush The Christmas Penguin Bubble Bar | £3.25

Lush Golden Wonder Bath Bomb | £3.75

Lush Drummers Drumming Reusable Bubble Bar | £5.25

Lush The Melting Snowman Bath Melt | £2.25

Lush Shoot For The Stars Bath Bomb | £3.50

Lush Snow Fairy Shower Gel | £7.50 for 250g

Lush Father Christmas Bath Bomb | £3.50

Lush First Snow Sparkly Dusting Powder | £4.75

AHHH Look at all the Christmas Gift Sets!
What are your favourite A/W Lush products? Are there any you'd like to try?